sad for what

yesterday call to e-promoter, just want try can get some work during boring holiday a not~
but...im not sad for i cant find a job for me because i still havent finish SPM yet. is...i unable to speak english well!a indian girl told me...
i reli agree that my english very lousy~but how?what can i do?i want find some people to teach me speak english well, but where?who?i duno...i just knoe i cant speak english well!!!!all speaking english now, although khoo also can write a english sentence that i dun understand what he writing about~sorry khoo, im not that mean, i just prove how bad my english is...i was not mad to the indian girl or women~she is saying truth n  she also good la~she ask me, after i SPM can call there again n ask me study properly, dont think about work at me this age~i agree, she was good!no some people will talk this to a strange people~she is a good girl~

yesterday go impulse physic tuition, i get sejarah tips from hui wen + BU1~although i didn't read ><
i send it to my friend that i know they are annoyance(烦恼) to their sejarah~they all got reply me ask about how i get it n good luck 2 my exam or thx~except wh~he such like didn't receive my message, he is the one didn't reply me...after we break, he didn't message me anymore~im sad...i will lose a good best friend!we knoe each other from primary school. he is the only one primary school same class student that i still contact will + study in a same school + in  a good relationship~i hope i not will lost it...but i dunno how to dunwan lost it...is it my problem?although we meet each other at school, we also such like dunno each other or just said a "hi"~mayb the problem at me here because i knoe i had a not responding face always~i just dunno how to respond...我们已经没像以前将熟悉，将好聊了~渐渐的疏远了...